Bear with me while I gush!
I just finished reading the Twilight books. I swore I wouldn't get caught up in the teen wonderlust and I wouldn't care about them but we rented the movie. We watched the long, slow movie and I couldn't make sense of a few things so I read the book to fill in the holes. I was hooked. I read like Superman runs so I was done with the books in about 5 days and my house looks like it. I live inside books and the story has really stayed with me. And, for some reason, it has reminded me how much I am in love with my husband. I vaguely remember life before our kids and I was too young and immature to appreciate the time we had together. Life is stressful when you are young and working like mad to get what you want out of life. Infertility didn't help me be calm at all and so I was an uptight, stressed out chick. I am happy to report that I have relaxed over the years. Otherwise, I would have had a stroke by now.
I love that we have been together now for almost 20 years and that while we have had our tough moments, we are every bit as in love with eachother as we were in the beginning. We are soul mates and he is definitely my other half. Life is hard but I am so glad I can look at him everyday and feel butterflies in my stomach still. He lives his life for me and the kids and he wouldn't have it any other way. I can't believe how hard he works and does it with a smile. Even when things have been tough, I knew I really shouldn't complain because I get to live the fairytale.
I suppose it takes time in our lives to throw off what selfishness we have inside to really see our mates for the wonderful people they are. We spend so much time being frustrated and busy and wanting and needing, that we forget to just stop and say wow! You're still here doing this with me!?
I know what it means to almost loose everything, it isn't a fun feeling. I know what it feels like to almost loose a child, again not so fun. I am so thankful for this family that I have and that we all choose to keep doing this life thing together. It truely is so short. Not a moment can be wasted. At the end of the day, the people matter more than anything.
My baby is 12 and looking more like a man than a child everyday. The other two are not far behind and I just can't waste a moment with them. They will start leaving us to venture out on their own in just a few short years. I remember feeling like their baby/toddler years would last forever. I think I blinked because they are over. It is exhausting, but the good kind, when you are a parent. Alan and I have loved it and cherish all our time with our kids. But, we are grateful for one another and that when it is just us again, it will be ok because we still want to be with eachother forever.
I just finished reading the Twilight books. I swore I wouldn't get caught up in the teen wonderlust and I wouldn't care about them but we rented the movie. We watched the long, slow movie and I couldn't make sense of a few things so I read the book to fill in the holes. I was hooked. I read like Superman runs so I was done with the books in about 5 days and my house looks like it. I live inside books and the story has really stayed with me. And, for some reason, it has reminded me how much I am in love with my husband. I vaguely remember life before our kids and I was too young and immature to appreciate the time we had together. Life is stressful when you are young and working like mad to get what you want out of life. Infertility didn't help me be calm at all and so I was an uptight, stressed out chick. I am happy to report that I have relaxed over the years. Otherwise, I would have had a stroke by now.
I love that we have been together now for almost 20 years and that while we have had our tough moments, we are every bit as in love with eachother as we were in the beginning. We are soul mates and he is definitely my other half. Life is hard but I am so glad I can look at him everyday and feel butterflies in my stomach still. He lives his life for me and the kids and he wouldn't have it any other way. I can't believe how hard he works and does it with a smile. Even when things have been tough, I knew I really shouldn't complain because I get to live the fairytale.
I suppose it takes time in our lives to throw off what selfishness we have inside to really see our mates for the wonderful people they are. We spend so much time being frustrated and busy and wanting and needing, that we forget to just stop and say wow! You're still here doing this with me!?
I know what it means to almost loose everything, it isn't a fun feeling. I know what it feels like to almost loose a child, again not so fun. I am so thankful for this family that I have and that we all choose to keep doing this life thing together. It truely is so short. Not a moment can be wasted. At the end of the day, the people matter more than anything.
My baby is 12 and looking more like a man than a child everyday. The other two are not far behind and I just can't waste a moment with them. They will start leaving us to venture out on their own in just a few short years. I remember feeling like their baby/toddler years would last forever. I think I blinked because they are over. It is exhausting, but the good kind, when you are a parent. Alan and I have loved it and cherish all our time with our kids. But, we are grateful for one another and that when it is just us again, it will be ok because we still want to be with eachother forever.
1 comment:
Your post made me cry. Well said. I feel the exact same way. Thanks for the reminder. Hugs!
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